Gaura Pahu

Narottam Das Thakur has written this song “Gora Pahun”. The official name of this song is Aksepa (Lamentation). This song is taken from the book Prarthana (Section: Aksepa Song 1). In this song, Narottam Das Thakur has described his miseries due to not worshipping Lord Gaura.

(1)
gaurā pahu nā bhajiyā goinu
prema-ratana-dhana helāya hārāinu
(2)
adhane yatana kari dhana teyāginu
āpana karama-doṣe āpani ḍubinu
(3)
sat-sańga chāḍi’ kainu asate vilāsa
te-kāraṇe lāgilo ye karma-bandha-phāńsa
(4)
viṣaya-viṣama-viṣa satata khāinu
gaura-kīrtana-rase magana nā hainu
(5)
keno vā āchaye prāṇa ki sukha pāiyā
narottam dās keno nā gelo mariyā

 
TRANSLATION
1) I did not worship Lord Gauranga Prabhu and thus I became full of suffering.  I refused to accept the treasure of pure love of Krsna, and thus I became lost.
2) I reject the treasure of love of Krsna and deliberately struggled to become poor.  I dived into a host of sinful deeds.
3) I rejected the association of the saintly devotees, and instead tried to enjoy among the impious non-devotees.  In this way I became caught in the noose of karma.
4) I continually drank the virulent poison of sense-gratification.  I refused to swim in the nectar of Lord Caitanya’s sankirtana movement.
5) Why do I stay alive?  What happiness do I have?  Why did Narottama dasa not die long ago?